By BMW
December 30th, 1997 was a cold day with gusts of snow
flakes fluttering toward the ground.
Christmas was over, and I'd just come through the first Christmas in my
life without my mother. I missed her. I missed all those that I'd lost
from my life in one way or another. Some had died, others had lied. Some
had moved, others had been re-moved!
Story of my life.
The dream I'd had during the night hadn't done much
in cheering me up, but had reminded me of even more sadness. Uncle
Harold walking hand in hand with his step-daughter Carol Ann down by the
old red brick building in Belpre where my grand mother had lived, and
where I was born. I even missed that old building, and Uncle Bill's
little old house boat just over the hill from the building.
Uncle Harold had attended my mother's funeral, but Carol Ann hadn't. She was always Mom's favorite. I always figured Mom would trade any one or all five of her own kids for Carol Ann. I never did understand that. She was the meanest, most back stabbing bitch I'd ever laid eyes on, but mom thought the sun rose and set on her.
I'd written a spiritual tribute to my mother, but Harold and his daughter Mary Lou said they didn't want to listen to my craziness at the funeral so I was not permitted to read my story. I brought it home and filed it away. Just one more thing I'd written based upon a spirituality that I'd seen all my life but no one else seemed to notice or want to hear about. A few more sheets of worthless paper that Mike and Christina will have the pleasure of burning upon my own demise.
Mike was already watching the Bible story on TV when I entered the living room I loved those old Bible stories. I felt so close to Noah, Moses, Abraham and all those old timers. They lived the same type of life that I live. Only problem is, the world believed them. Back in those days, the world believed in a mysterious God that spoke to his people through dreams, visions, animals, zones or regions and names.
In today's world, people didn't pay much attention to where they lived, or the names of their children or even their animals. But I still did, and my friend Judy did. We'd been watching spiritual messages sent through animals for years. We'd documented many of them, but still the average person saw us as two crazy women. I couldn't help but wonder if they really saw God as an insane entity also but were too sophisticated and educated to say what they actually thought. Probably.
Take Abraham for example. His name was originally Abram
and his wife was Sari. God changed both their names to Abraham and Sarah,
and he told Abraham what to name their son....Isaac, just as an angel
would appear to another human many years later and foretell of the birth
of another male child and "ye shall call his name Jesus", I recalled how,
years ago, I had seen a spiritual message within the registered name of
my chosen breed of dog. The German Shepherd Dog. I think I was originally
attracted to the breed because it contained the word Shepherd and I
thought of Jesus...
the Good Shepherd.
The dog also reminded me of a wolf, and yet I knew it
wasn't. It was far more graceful and elegant than any wolf. And the standard
for the Shepherd called for something I'd never seen imposed upon an
animal before....an incorruptible character, Why, that almost made the
animal spiritual in nature. Jesus was the only person I'd ever known of
that had an "incorruptible character." He was sent as a Shepherd for God's
sheep. If God and Jesus used animals to represent people, after all his
"flock of sheep" were actually people, then why wasn't it possible he
still used animals to portray people and events?
Could I simply be seeing things that most people choose
not to see? Did God continue to draw paths through names and regions?
German Shepherd Dog (reversed)....God dreh (drew) pehs
(paths)....nam (name) reg (regions).
Did he continue to reveal things only to those he'd chosen? Was I one of
them? If so, why?
I watched the TV screen as Lot was instructed to flee from the sinful city and take with him his wife and two daughters. I already knew that God's angels had instructed them to "not look back," and I was not surprised when his wife looked back and was turned to a pillar of salt. I thought of some of the old "shepherds" from the Bible....and I thought of some of my old "Shepherds"....
Chi and Khi, both pronounced the same, and both meaning "personal guardian angel." Both dogs were dead now, as was many others we had owned over the years. And yet, they still came to us in dreams. They still served mankind with an incorruptible character.
As I heard Abraham told he'd been tested as a fine piece of metal, I thought of our co-owned dog, Granvilles' Heavy Metal. We'd called him Zep, in honor of a heavy metal rock group, which I was never actually certain that we should have done, but I guess it didn't make any difference what his call name was. The Lord had been using Zep for years and years to relay messages to Judy about murders and crimes that were to be committed here on earth. Many times we felt that we should have been able to prevent the murders and to stop the killers, but mankind would not listen. They chose to do things their way, and we soon saw that man's ways are NOT God's ways. And even though the continuing murders left an indelible mark upon our hearts, we are satisfied they left no marks upon our spirits. On judgement day, we may be held accountable for many, many things but the murder of our people will not be one of them, I am confident.
This Christmas, I went to see my father. My biological father, and my paternal grandparents. I had seen them all before, when I was but a toddler of about 18 months of age. I'd dreamed of my father whom I'd not seen before. My mother took me to see my grandparents that day and learned that my father had come home at the time that I'd had the dream. He's not raised me. My step father had done that, and I respected him and honored him, and my mother until their passing. But this Christmas, I went to visit them all. I stood in the pouring rain and decorated the graves of people I'd never been permitted to know, and yet, I did and do know them.
From my grandfather, William Levi Johnson, I gained the
spiritual person that I am, for the Bible says it is the tribe of Levi
from which the spiritual people shall come...the priests and the prophets.
And I recalled the book of Ruth in our Bible and my paternal Aunt Ruth,
whom I'd never known but whom still lives. From my grandmother Zona,
came confirmation on the "regions" portion of my Shepherd reversed
theory. Zones and regions are about the same thing. And from my father
came confirmation of the bloodlines of old. His initials had to be
reversed, but I already knew that. I'd seen reversal of things years ago....
German Shepherd Dog....
William E. Johnson.
JEW.
And I thought of my old dog Pedra and the woman who had given her to me.
Her name was Good. Good and Shepherd in the same sentence. That was
amazing. Pedra had been a half sister to Zep, and his mother Charko had
also been given to me by Mrs. Good.
The Good and Shepherd....
The words took me right back to the Bible and God's promises to his
people. "Your young shall dream dreams and your old shall see visions."
"I will bless those who bless (my people) and I will curse those who
curse them." And so it had been, even with those who seemed to be our
friends and had been generous only to turn around and discover they were
the most treacherous of all. One by one I'd watched them fall.
As Abraham prepared to sacrifice his son Isaac to God,
I listened as the child pleaded, "Father, is there nothing you will deny
God?" And I shed a tear at Abraham's answer.... "Nothing my son."
I recalled how Judy had prayed to God after her father's death, when
she feared also the death of her mother. She had asked Him to take her
beloved Zep instead of her mother if another must follow. And ten days
later Zep was gone. God had spared Isaac due to Abraham's Faith and
Loyalty. Loyalty. That was something else the German Shepherd Dog was
noted for.
Zep had been replaced by a dog from Two World's Kennels. Judy
named him Khi. As his (spiritual) twin Chi was already in the spirit world
though, Khi was not destined to live long in this one.
Judy did everything humanly possible to "save" him, but in the end she let him go. God promised that he'd not lay more upon his people than they could bear, and we've noticed when one door closes, another opens. If one thing is taken, another is given. We waited.
Meanwhile, I reversed Khi... IHK. Sounded a little like Isaac, with the middle missing to me !! I've never yet seen the Lord begin an answer and end and answer without supplying the middle at some point! Thought his sense of humor was tremendous! But knew he wanted us to use the brains he'd given us. I didn't think many people were doing that now days.
Then just before the holidays in 1997, Judy got a new German Shepherd pup "given" to her. He too was from the Two World's Kennel but through a previous buyer, and I began to see the spiritual message within the Two World's .... just as I'd seen the one in the Good connection. It wasn't the people. It was God working through the people and through the dogs.
Judy's new dog had not been registered but was from the
R litter so she had to choose a name starting with the letter R. She
chose "Two World's Remember Me." His call name was Zeek. We'd never
had a dog named Zeek before. He looked a lot like Khi.... And as the
Bible story ended, and I looked back through the story, I saw the
beginning....an old sheep herder....an old shepherd with the faith of
granite. "And I will bless thee and make thee a great nation....numbered
as the stars of heaven and the sands of the sea shore....
And I thought of his son Isaac who had come so close to death, and I
thought of those who had gone on to the spirit world and those of us
left behind. And I did one more reversal, and I found the missing middle
and put it where it belonged. It took "both world's"....the physical and
the spiritual to bring it together and pass it back to us, but it was
done, coming and going.
Khi / Zeek ....Khizeek: Reversed IH...ZEE...K / IHZEEK .. ISAAC:
"If ye but have the faith of a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto
the mountains, Move, and it shall move."
And I said unto the mountain.... "Move," and it did quake and tremble,
for it knew not my God and his power. It knew not my God and his sense
of humor and compassion and patience, and ability to even (evom) up the
score.....but I did.
Late Note: Judy, owner of Zeek (Zeke) received a Biblical
message calendar for Christmas 1998. One of the first things she looked
up on the new calendar was Zeek's birthday, May 30th. The message for
that day was ....
"If they believe that I was sent by God, they are not deceived."
I bowed my head in humble acknowledgement of a Mighty God.
B.M.W
1998
This story was written and given to me by BMW.
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· STORIES FROM THE HEART
· SOMETHING SPECIAL
· FROM A TO ZEKE
· KINDRED SPIRITS LOPEZ
· PAW PRINTS
· KHI
· IZEEK
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